.definitely need a change.

i dun feel really well tonight. mungkin sebab perubahan cuaca yg dah banyak kali berubah? it was sunny yesterday but it got darker (felt like Malaysia's weather). Alternating between sunny and cloudy. I usually can get through this without getting sick but i've been sneezing multiple of time today plus stuffy nose and sore throat. Went for a jog just now and it was hella cold. Memang la tak macam winter but still.. it's freaking summer already. Lalat is freaking everywhere!

Exam is coming..but i dun see me studying. smart enough? wuuuuuu...need to organize my life properly. Everything just seem so messy. my room is..my table..my food intake..unwashed clothes..money.. who to blame?

ME!

Nah kek! Ni zaman rajin masak ni. Skarang memang tak ah.
Dengan pokainye. siap belobang poket.

P/S: Nothing is impossible. YOU can make it possible.

P/SS: wahai kamooo yg boncit! lupakan kisah lame. stat yg baru la baaii. that thing overshadowing u. tak kesa ah ko stat camano pon. caro apo skali pon. just let em go lorh. well, those things never happened to me and i'll never know how it feels but as a friend (yes! as a fren! even we're not close) i have this tiny idea in my mind that i must help u. i dunno where this tiny thingy came from though. bukan ko baca pon blog aku. sbb tu la kot aku tulis kat sini. spiritually and virtually helping u. tang mane spiritnye ak taktau. i still want u to b happy with whoeva, whateva, and wherever. ur choice~ *big smile*

.time.

Subuh prayer in Egypt is getting earlier. *yawn* Means that i have to stay up or else i may gonna miss it. UNINTENTIONALLY. it's 3.17AM right now and i yawned countless of time while finishing some of my works. *yawn*

April is a busy month for me i guess. i hardly can find time for me to study. time for myself. well..i may look like i'm lying but the truth is, i did had some time free but *yawn* i filled it with Subway Surfers, facebook, twitter n stuff. i do quite regret of throwing my precious time for those 'lagha' thingy but wat can i do. i got home, tired. need some refreshment = games and etc. study was definitely a no no. guilty. *yawn* guilty to my parents and mostly to myself really. Everytime. If i were to say i need something to boost up my motivation, that is actually me. i'm the one who need to catalyst myself. there wont any other thing can do it. the first step toward success is when u make a decision and u commit. without this step, u stuck at the same place forever.

Hmm.. everything will subside next two days. insyaAllah. i will have more free time by then. this surgery round is quite scary. have to start working on it slowly. round exam is just around the corner. n i heard internal medicine round is much scarier due to its enormous information. may Allah eases everything. Night.

p/s: might or might not be updating this blog depends on my sleepiness during my stay up. those yawning on this post are 100% true. i'm not making em up.

This would be one of my fav time of all. Volleyball.
Picture taken during Mansoura Open Volleyball Tournament 2012. 

.sarah.

i don't write much but if i did, it will be hella long. i know it's been awhile since i posted something in this blog. i was thinking of deleting it but it took sometime for me to think that i do have some memories here that i would like to keep for the rest of my life (maybe?).

2009, one or two months just after my SPM, i started this blog from scratch. For fun? well, it is not fun. A medium to channel my feeling of happiness, sadness, furious and etc. i guess nothing much happen in my life that i seldom update this thing. Not to tell the whole world how i feel or what i am doing right now, (we got facebook and twitter for that, aye?) nor to boast bout something that i have. i just thought it would be nice to have a blog and read em through when u got nothing to do. yeah i did that sometimes..i ain't no freak. diary is not my thang really. i had one and i don't know where it goes. no secrets to keep. i left it open all day long.

so, what makes me write today? any interesting things happen? well well. not really. quite frustrated of several news i heard today. but that's that. i must keep my mind positive. never had this kind of experience before. Allah made me went through this for reasons. And i did. though it hurts so much, it's a phase. A phase to make me stronger after. and i will. of course i will. i think it is a test for me of how much i think of Him when a small matter like this happened. i struggled. to Him we came and to Him we shall return.

A pounding heart,

Racing to nowhere,

Temperature rises,

And nobody cares.

Allah cares.

He always do.

and we always forget that.

From the Cliff of Moher, Galway, Ireland
.Winter Break '13.

I don't know how the picture turned out colorless though i din adjust the setting of my phone.

.Winter Break 2013.

Ireland, Scotland and United Kingdom! 

18 days

Awesome countries! Polite citizens!

So many things i did, so many things i ate!

So many that i am too lazy to write them all!

Yeah~

TTYL~

.2013.

A warm welcome from me dear 2013.
this new year's eve was da best! played volleyball for fun with others while wearing jeans and jacket. peerghh. da lama tak spike sedap-sedap sampai vibrate tgn sdiri! hoho!rugi sape2 tak gi tadi~ sibuk stadi kunun~ hahah! i don't know why do i have to be this passionate in volleyball but not in study. slowly, akan diubah perangai ini. Well now, to reminisce back my 2012's memories are sure a lot. mostly are in my previous post i guess. okay..not mostly but some of them. *terkejut bunyi bunga api* yeah..yeah..happy new year..bleergh..

WELCOME ABOARD 2013!

1) Another 10kg to loose!

2) Mumtaz Sem 7 and Sem 8!

3) UK, Ireland and Scotland winter trip!

4) Improve in playing piano!

5) 1st place in Volleyball Tournament

6) More activities in kitchen

7) Earn money during summer break!

8) RM1 per day (2LE/day)

9) Attachment

10) Jepun weeyh!

I fall asleep for a moment just now. tatau nak letak resolution ape. well here it is! let us hope for the best in 2013!!!