.confession.

when we talk about confession, it's either someone is confessing their love or confessing their guilt. But here i am confessing my confession that will not completely confessed! Oh! INFINITE is playing on the background! Haha~ i remember last time when i posted something bout my displeased of someone (it's really really long ago) in my blog and it turned out that, "that" someone is !@#$%^&*(*&%#@#$%^*()*^$#@#$& Sorry bout this, my madness suddenly came out of nowhere.. So, it turned out "that" someone read my blog and asked me who was i talking about in my blog! hahaha! and i was like, "err...it's not you for sure..it's someone else! someone you know!" and i told a story bout someone else~ it wasn't a lie though, the story~ XD My blog supposed to be a place for me to throw up everything what's going on my mind. Well, i guess not~ it's public!! ^^i'm not trying to be an emo or whatsoeva but it all comes just like that! Blame the hormones! hoho~ so..the conclusion is, i can be mad and all but i can't write bout it~ Exactly like now. Still, i can tell that i'm in rage. The reasons can't be told because someone's going to be sad of what i will write~

What da hell is that? is that a so-called confession? hahah~ whateva~ i can't just sit around and keep everything inside. Need to study some more~ and now..i think i'm relieved~ thannks for reading my sh*t internal thoughts~ バカ!~

P/S: please pray for my midsem exam (26/4) and my final (15,18,20/4) to be a success!

.old-one.

when i was a lil bit loss and everything seems to walk away from me..i put my iTunes in shuffle and this song was played...lyrics:


This world
This world is cold
But you don't
You don't have to go
You're feeling sad, you're feeling lonely, and no one seems to care
You're mother's gone and your father hits you
This pain you cannot bear

But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know

Your days
You say they're way too long
And your nights
You can't sleep at all
Hold on
And you're not sure what you're waiting for, but you don't want to no more
And you're not sure what you're looking for, but you don't want to no more

But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking, you're one step closer
Don't stop searching, it's not over
Hold on

What are you looking for?
What are you waiting for?
Do you know what you're doing to me?
Go ahead...What are you waiting for?

yup! it's from Good Charlotte!~ Love the band~ hohoho! miss Simple Plan, All American Rejects, Fall Out Boys, MCR and etc~

.blogpress.

I used this thing on my ipod after the recommendation from my sis. It's kinda easy but ipod's keyboard is hard to type in.. I tend to make a lot of typo. Hehe~

Today is the first day of my study leave~ please pray for my success!! Yeah!!

During the last lecture.. I made this but got thrown away by my friend, Amal. She said it was useless thing to make... *sigh* after all the hardwork i took to make it....


- Posted using BlogPress from my iPod

.the-chase.

from the tittle itself, yeah...i got chased! haha~ it's quite funny actually but i dun think reading this post will make you laugh but seriously, my jaw hurts from laughing!

The night when i had squash with ma sis. I had a date with ma housemates at a kind-of-popular-Egyptian-restaurant-between-Malaysians. So, after i played squash, i went to my sis house before going to the meet. watched "Maharaja Lawak" and i think Jozan was the funniest! The weather is freakin' hot even at night. To shortened the story, we had our supper and was on the way going back home. Then, a group of malay girls come running to our direction and we were wondering why. Then, it appears that an Egyptian boy is chasing them. We acted cool. It's just a boy. We could just smack him with my squash racket if he approached us. well, he stopped chasing the girls and stared at us. And we were like..."eerrr...let's cross the road..the boy looks kinda scary". After we crossed it, i tried to scared him with my racket, wave it like a cowboy sending him a msg, "i have this thing and if u came after us, i'm so going to smack you down!!" i think he didn't get the msg cause he came toward us RUNNING! A friend of mine, Miss A, started to run first and stimulated me and Miss M to sprint! Miss A was like cursing all the way during the run,"SH*T! SH*T!!" and i was like laughing since i found it FUNNY! hahah! it's not scary at the moment and all i did was laugh!  I don't know what Miss M was doing since she's already at the front. Miss A grabbed my squash racket to scared the boy away but he's already gone! All we did on the way back home were laughing and talked bout it all night! haha!

btw, Miss M has a black belt in taekwondo~

P/S: HOTNESS OVERLOAD!!! the weather i mean. Not some hot korean guys or watsoeva~
P/S: i HAVE to excel my midsem and final exam to go back Malaysia!! I HAVE TO!!! or else i'm going to be a roasted chicken if i stayed here..

*currently listening to Brian Joo's It's Over Now (English version)

.changes.

you can't expect people will change according to your likeness.. they might change from good to bad and you have to deal with it..because you know they won't accept your advice since not all people can actually listen to it and bear it in mind so they won't repeat the same damn thing. They do it everyday without even realizing that what they did was an absolute wrong. No one try to tell them. Worrying that it will break their hearts and the bond is automatically broken. Something is going through their mind mingling bout the hatred and disgust. But they just keep it quiet..though it shows vividly on their face..and take the poor one for granted. Have they ever recite the word 'thanks'? Just an appreciation for the time that have been wasted to something unnecessary. And for the simplicity that the poor had given to them? Shame! Disgrace! They are not the only living thing in this world but they act like one. They think they know everything and boast bout it everywhere. Humble..modest are not in their vocabulary. They are the best of the best! Stupid people who will only believe it..

P/S: "they" doesn't meant plural and "the poor" doesn't mean singular
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.dominoes.

whoah....less than 2weeks then i'm going to sit for my midsem exam! how cool is that!! NOT! seriously..i need to stop doing some 'useless' things like surfing the internet and playing iPod games till 2AM (omo!! 2AM~)! They're not worth it. Every hours i spent on them.. but still they are SOO addicting! *sigh* Sometimes i think, if i didn't have this craziness about kPop, all of these things won't happen. but once again..they are SOO addicting! i need to limit my entertainment part. though i've done that and it failed, i need to work harder..no matter what!
START FROM THIS SECONDS!!!  i dun want to fall like dominoes..they keep falling and never wake up..i wanna be a domino that sticks to the floor by the strongest glue in the world with a lot of protective layers surrounding me!-runs off-

*currently listening to "Domino" by Brian Joo

V.I.U

i'm not freaking desperate!!

hai hai~ Last night was volleyball time~ And as always, i had a great time! It was a very nice moment even i'm not close with the team members. i've tried to be close with them!! but what can i do! i'm so freaking timid!! go to hell shyness!! i hate you!! well, i'm a person who don't talk much. So, i'll be just the way i am~ but at the same time, trying to improve my personality~ haha! sounds like it's easy to work on~ Btw, i have squash this evening~ yay! not a good player and it's my second time playing this sort of sport! that's why~ Am not playing it to become a pro or whatsoever. Just to have fun. Haha~ *hungry* 2 sports! and i was thinking to play another one -Swimming! i'm not an athlete! i'm a doctor! i came here to study medicine not sports! so, i had to forget the other one~ heee~ the paying is kinda expensive too~ and the schedule is not fit in with mine~  So bye bye~ XD  *went to the kitchen and eat some of the leftover meatball soup*

Where was i? oh! sports! i dun wanna talk bout that~ so, TTYL~

P/S: midsem exam is approaching!
*currently listening to VIU from B2ST

.think.

it's kinda weird for me to sit down at the study desk, one hand on the forehead, and the other one on the desk knocking for several times and think, "why am i so damn lazy to study?" But yet, all the thinking went away and the laziness returned!

*currently listening to Cee Lo - Forget You

.so-malas-huh-updating-blog.

hi everybody~ so, as u all know and don't know, some places in Egypt had minor earthquakes due to earthquake in Greece. Can't feel it in Mansoura though.. yeah.. "Kiamat" is getting nearer i guess.. and it scared a hell out of me.. signs of the end of the world - 3 earthquakes, one at east, one at west and another one is at land of Arab. It's like all of the 3 earthquakes already happened..Japan, New Zealand and Egypt (it's not that big, so i think it's coming again).

Dem..i can't wrote any serious thing.. that's why i stroke em all out! Well, i really got scared of all things happened but yet i'm still ....you know...i'm exactly the way i am. i can't change the bad things about myself. The changing period itself is kinda a torture. eventually, i got sick of it and keep being my old self. An arrogant self..a stupid one. Earthquakes, natural disasters, supposed to aware any living things in this world that their life is getting shorter. But i guess not. They do all the same malicious things they did before. Another sign of  "Kiamat". I'm certainly sure that i'm not 100% ready for it to come. i can't even imagine the exact terrible things to happened during the day. But the only thing i know is it's going to be VERY horrible. My family, are we going to be together on the day?

I believed it's going to happened someday. i don't know the real date but it will happen soon. That doesn't mean you can stop all the works you are doing and wait. Keep on going and run for your dreams! *wink*

P/S: i've been lazy nowadays..need to cover all 5 cases before the midsem! no study week and it sucks! i'll start tomorrow ASAP!
P/S2: no more night snacks like maggi! my bone cells are degenerating! stupid MSG! Am going to exercise once every two days using skipping rope~ hee~

*listening to U-Kiss' "0330"