.F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

what friends are really for? seriously i'm asking.

there are times when our hope falls down and they lift it up though they are not even sure.
there are times when we cry hard and they come to ease our heart.
there are also times when they hurt us. but who are we to be hurt when we sometimes hurt them too?

i don't have any best friends. but i have lots of friends throughout my life. almost all of them are made from school. primary school, secondary school, high school, university. but then when we graduated so do some of our friendships. we went to different schools..different universities. they say, a best friend is a friend when you share everything about how you feel..how you have been..who is your crush..secrets..a place for you to cry to..and count on to. when we go down the list, then my family is my bestfriend. they know everything about me and sometimes the things that i don't know myself. so, when my friends trying to hide who my crush was infront of my sis, i laughed to myself. of course she knew. i knew her crush too. even my whole family knew where he lived. far far away~ you can cut your friendship's bond but not your family's.

to be a comrade like Naruto is surely difficult. he risks his own life for his friends. he chases after Sasuke non-stop though he knows how Sasuke had become and tries to change him back. i know it is just some freakin anime but the moral value is good for me to take in. i admit that i did cry watching this anime~ haha. we hardly heard about a friend willing to sacrifice his/her life for a dear friend. it happened but not as much. am i willing to? well, it's too much to ask this but if something happen i do want to take care of them. i'm not a good friend myself.

 i don't meddle in their problem. scared much? nope. it is for them to solve. i can only be by their side and cheer on. but if they didn't want to help themselves nobody could. seriously nobody. it all comes from you! if you think u cant do it..you CAN'T do it. if you can..then you CAN. simple as that. u can't do this test, u expect you can pass the next one? think twice. don't go around and tell 'he/she made me like this'..'i'm not happy because of him/her'. you know what. YOU made yourselves like this. your not happy because of YOURSELF. change the way you think.

Haha! how did i drag about 'friends' to 'how to be happy'. well, i meant the last paragraph to you who read this. a book by Andrew Matthews about "follow your heart" really changed my vision of seeing things. have this friend telling me i won't finish the book. well have this friend ever seeing me reading a book? i like books and there's a reason why i like them cause i READ them~ novels especially..i don't dig medical books~ TEHEE

To my friends out there.. just because i said i don't have bestfriends, u don't go and feel awkward around me cause u've considered me as one. this is the way i am. i don't know what is bestfriend and i doubt any person will read this to the end cause it is so damn long.. =.="

Sekian

.since last update.

.Salam.

Hi peeps. It's been awhile since i updated my blog. Almost forgot that i actually own a blog. まま～ So, there were sure lots of things happened since my last update. It was Ramadhan, we already celebrated Eid and now i'm in Egypt working my ass out going through my clinical years. Can't get enough of the craziness of my family i came back here with a heavy heart.

Eid this year, of course it's not as exciting as when i was a child, i got to do my own dish!! yeah! haha~ well, it's not that i was lazy to cook or whatsoeva last Eids but you know how my mom was. She still think she's raising 'kids'. Will cause a chaos if she let us working in the kitchen. After some discussion with my older sis' THEN she let us cook for the guests. Not a heavy dish but i did mushroom soup and homemade garlic spread bread. DON'T doubt the taste!! It was DELICIOUS recognized by me!

The first Family Day ever! We went to Cherating, Pahang. I thought the beach was beautiful but i guess not. Kind of disappointed with the beach especially. It supposed to be clean. I see diapers everywhere. *sigh* Well, i planned a lot of games actually. For kids and adults. Some games got cut off from the plan by my sis. Time restrained, she said. I didn't really care cause we had so much fun at the beach. Funny thing was, the balloons filled with water were not bursting! Supposed they will get us wet, we got pain instead. Haha! Still, we keep on shooting them to our family members!

The Red Warrior! i was freaking excited when i met them! My friends weren't cause the are not from Kelantan. You know how much Kelantanese obsessed with their football team! It was at KLIA that i met them. First, i spotted Khairul Fahmi siting with his friend while listening to Oppa Gangnam Style quite loud. I 100% sure it was him n i turned back at walked pass him to tell my family bout him. At the the international boarding gate, i waited for my friends to gather so that we could go to our gate together. The TRW team went down the escalator and we (my family and other strangers) were cheering like crazy. Afiq Azmi went later actually. He's not one of TRW's player, a loan player but he's so handsome that i got excited some more! haha! my sis called him and when he turned back, my sis ducked in a shock and left me hanging don't know what to do. I just stared blankly at the roof. Then, my mom called him. Now i waved at him and said "Goodluck, Afiq!" He waved back and said thanks! it made my day~ When my friends gathered, we went to the gate and the police(?) there said that we will ride the same plane as them! My heart got flowery. Other thing happened before we rode the plane and on the plane itself. i just keep it to my heart~  Some are disturbing, really~ Hee

P/S: every event, i have soo much things to say. but this post will get too long and u will get tired of reading~ Till we meet again. i don't know when. HAHA!

.Ramadhan.

ku mengharapkan ramadhan...kali ini penuh makna

i do feel different about this year fasting month. and to write the reasons bout it will make me sound boastful. so i'll just keep it deep in my heart. i think those who do nothing or do the same like any other month except hunger and thirst are unfortunate. this is the month where u can multiple ur ibadah cause this is the month where u get multiple of pahala. how generous our God is. i'm not saying this because i am all perfect or whatsoever. i am, too, sometimes playing around in front of computer and listen to some musics. watch tv programs n sleep. but here i am to remind you even a single person who read this that it is not too late. we have less than 10 days left and why not we go to taraweeh and read al-quran. chase lailatul qadar people! stop wasting time!

p/s Welcome to 60's!! alhamdulillah~ let's aim for 50's now shall we? (u have no idea what it is? then, dont ask cause i dun intend to tell ya)

.the visit.

It's been a while since my last post. Well, nothing's special happened except for some friends came to my house last week for 3days of holiday in Kelantan. It did exhaust me but we really had a great time! It was troublesome to think of where did i wanted to bring them to but it all went smoothly unexpectedly. Thanks to my mom i guess. Hehe.

We went to alot of places and since they like shopping alot we actually went to wakaf che yeh and kbmall twice. Of course rantau panjang and pengkalan kubor once. The longest distance i had driven to. Still remember last year, my dad was mad at me AND my mom cause she let me drove from pengkalan kubor to kota bharu. It wasn't a big deal though.

I dont know since when or how all these had started, my family seemed to know about my ex-crush. I wrote ex because don't like him anymore. Haha. My sis thought that i lost weight because i liked someone which was not completely true. I lost weight because of health reason and there was this doctor who came to my university and told us that he hated a fat doctor. That really caught me off guard. And of course, though it's minor one, i had some kind of oath with my bro that i will loose weight in years of studying in Egypt.

Just why did i wrote about this unimportant things? Cause i'm bored really. Bear with me. I have nothing to do. Have given a thought of joining an archery class but it is expensive that i would kill myself. Europe trip next year!! Need to save a whole sum of money.

P/S somebody please kill yhose semut gatal in this house. There has not been a day, they bit me.

.summer holiday.

Hi everybody~ Been searching everywhere for a place for me to join a volleyball team in kelantan. i can't find anywhere to the extend that i gave up. Well, summer holiday is starting which means i have 3 more months in Malaysia. The thing is, i dun really know what to do and what do i have to do to initiate something fun. boring gile i tell u.. my sis is not around to go loitering around KLCC or Midvalley. Watch movies or watsoeva. Since tomorrow i'm heading to my hometown i need to, atleast, think of what i'm going to do. I've listed everything before i touched down Malaysia, i know but.. there's a lot of other thing to count in too..!!

AAAARGGHH!! *hantuk kepala kat dinding*